so i havent really wrote anything in like a week but alota shit happened

honestly some of its so crazy i dont even wanna write about it but i will

alex g's birthday was this week so yeah

but seriously, i downloaded this game called saori sato which i played like last yearish anyway i did a multiplayer account and after a while i made my own server and somebody called NOICE joined, we became friends for a bit and then the server got over populated so i had to start banning ppl but one person named sapphire i didnt wanna kick out the server so i created a new one and told noice to join, they didnt join but sapphire did so we became friends, i cant really remember what we talked abt but after a while someone named mochi joined, mochi was nice and sapphire started talking to her a bitand then idk when it happened but she (sapphire) started being extremely flirty with me, after that i think we created another server bcuz i peft and mochi joined, then sapphire, i cant really remember EVERYTHING but i do remember that someone named ameera joined who was apparently in college, at some point we started playing two truths and a lie which led to me ofc revealing how mentally fucked i am and how im actually a boy (if youce read another pages on this website you wouldve known that i really badly wanna be a girl) anywayy i cant rlly remember but we talked for a while and eventually sapphire left and ameera said her sister was gonna play or smthing and her sister was freaky asf soo...yeah, then sapphire joined and she saved me :3 and then sapphire started getting all freaky again and then mochi and ameera left at some point so it was just us being freaky for a while till she started getting REALLY freaky and then she asked if i wanted to go further and i was bored so i said yeah! so this is the part i didjt wanna write about because we were literally sexting...! And she told me to touch myself and since im a dumb idiot i did..! then we went from there to discord and from discord she continued and she kept calling me a twink and a slut, it was really embaressing but i actuslly really liked it soo...till she had 2 leave but i "finished" around then so we talked a little and then she left, so then i joined a server with mochi and that was my start to a week 😓

oh but thats not it! the day after that (technically this happened yesterday) but i was checking my discord dms and i realized when i was younger some probably guy WANTED TO FUCK ME anyway i dont wanna say alot but he asked if i play sex games, then said we should be fwb and he said itll start as a joke and go places then he proceeded to mention me sitting on his lap when i asked his age he said "does it matter" so umm...yeah, obvi it was disguting so i told some of my friends and when i told parker parker said he never had a fwb so i told him if he wanted to be mines, he said how far i said not dar so he said if we ever meet again we can kiss :3

that same exact day sapphire told me to touch myself again so yeah...i did...i also started getting more used to her flirting with me though so i occasionally flirted back though it wouldnt help the fact that i liked being called a slut all the time

and finally the next day josh and i decided to create a website together because his old unblocked games document thing has died out because he got his computer taken away, so its on neocitoes its called The Project

So in a whole week ive had sex on the internet, created a website with someone, became friends with benefits with my longtime bsf, and despite everything j feel kinda fine? i only had to cut ONCE this entire week.

although, i guess even though thats not all, a couple of times i told sapphire i loved her, of course i dont know if i really meant that or if i said that out of hornyness, she said i only like the things she does to me sexually, she said she doesnt want me to feel like this but its fun playing around with me and seeing me so helpless. the morning after that she said she doesnt wanna date incase i came to that assumption or that i was thinking about it, she just wants it to be neutral.

i probably really do love her though...it really does feel like i love her, i always want her to get online...ugh its liam all over again, execpt this time its even worse...? it feels depressing and happy as ever though.

but still i have more to write about, so i think in my last diary entry i mentioned a groupchat, yeah well the groupchat eventually get freaky, especially me but then a boy naned logan who went by the name native hitler...Yeah, joined, and he got extra freakuer and then we started being freaky then he got kicked out and then they started blamingo EVERYTHING on me , when HE was literally freakier, same day it got leaked, so anyway eventually though i met logan and hes this really hit emo who i wanna give a blowjob too, so yeah, hes funny though we had to do a group project at some point and it was me and him and the whole time he was kinda funny so ya